Hmmm…seems like I’ve abandon my blog for too long of time. Oh…should have said ‘I’ve never wrote anything personal regarding my life’. Yeah, gonna throw my tantrum here. Well, i'm gonna try this out. Lemme see how far it will go!
Hell! This few days kinda messed me up, felt upset about how people treat me and what they said about me, even if it’s long long time ago. I still can’t leave it behind. I can say it hurts me a lot, for I’m an oversensitive ‘pest’! For a ‘pest’ like me…no one will try to understand even if I die, that’s right! Who will even care about a pest?! Hahaha…
People called me selfish. People called me that I take advantage of someone else to make my life easy! Wow, those are great comments on me huh? Maybe in some ways I’m that kind of people you think I am.
Before this get too far, here, I would like to apologise if you feel offended by what I posted here. I do not have the intention to hurt anyone or making fun of anyone of you out there. But, I’m just trying to express my feelings, share my problems out so that you would understand me even better. Maybe it will be a lil’, but it means a lot to me.
Let’s get down to the nitty-gritty- I know that I’m not the person that will easily pour out my feelings that buried deep inside my heart and mind. You know, it’s hard for me to share and talk about anything as anyone did so easily, I’m so…useless! So, the best way is to write it out! Haha…Silly!
Oh ya, if you think that I’m taking advantage on you or anyone, please be sure about it and why don’t you say it straight to my face, no need to say it at my back and spread it around. People, good job though! Very impressive! Just keeps it on, pretending that I do not know a damn thing about it! God bless you!!!
One more thing, if you think that I owe you anything, just tell me. I will pay you back! Thanks loads!
Gutted! I mean it people! ‘Cause you didn’t say it in an encouraging way. You’re not helping me to grow or to be better. You’re ruining me instead!
An advice given to me by Jen after pouring out to her- ‘Do not be a person that based on others’ requirements. Just be yourself.’ Thanks friend! Appreciate it.
If you want me to be the person you want me to be, that matches all your requirements, very truly I tell you, I can’t, it’s impossible! For no one is flawless…me either!
Why don’t you try to focus a lil’ bit less on others’ weaknesses and more on yours. If you can’t bear with my weaknesses, than you can choose not to get along with me.
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